Don’t have a lot to relate today, but I woke up with that feeling you get the night before vacation, that quiet anticipation of things to be found and done, uncluttered with worries of how, but just the joy of doing. I’ve got one more day, maybe two with Peri, and then I’m on to the next thing on my desk. But what has my mood evolving is not just the work. Amid my shifting of purpose and intent, I can see the weights in my life sliding with the soft and certain thump of ages, aligning my sight to a new focus.
Yep, we went to visit a university yesterday for Thing Two.
The doing so which reminded me too clearly of what I hated about college, ( which wasn’t much) what I liked, and that my youngest is about to have a chance at finding out a huge chunk about himself. I’m glad I have the good fortune to be there as his safety net.
Vistas are opening up both for him and myself as the ties of active parenthood are being eased and let out in a gentle give, the only difference between us being he has no clue as to the possibilities, and I’m looking at my own with a breathtaking awe. After twenty-five years of being an extended “we”, I almost don’t know how to think in this smaller “we” that encompass my husband and myself, a far more mobile “we.”
Don’t get me wrong. I loved raising my family and will always count those years as the best. But I’m not going to waste that empty nest with mourning it.
I found a second flower yesterday and got a nice shot of it close up. This new bunny cam is ace.